“God is faithful, this time will be no different.”
But what if it is? In the last two weeks as I’ve dealt with new health issues, including vestibular migraines that cause days of nonstop, unmanageable vertigo, vomiting, and pain at a time, I’ve felt my weakness more than ever. The tears burn behind my eyes, but I know if I sob as I want, it’ll only cause more damage. I desperately crave the distractions of yoga, walks, and baking, yet I know they’ll do the same. I beg God to regift me the ability to walk without stumbling, my full hearing, and my balance, with no change. If only the people who believe I am strong could see my hopelessness when none of my wishes come true, and when my prayers go unanswered. (Inhale) God is with me // (Exhale) I will not be afraid. But what if I am? (Inhale) The Lord is my Shepherd // (Exhale) I have all that I need. But what if I don’t? (Inhale) God is faithful // (Exhale) This time will be no different. But what if it is? Yet I sit here this morning, writing, ...